Although its only Thursday, this week is undeniably EVENTFUL. There was a 5.2 quake last Tuesday. It felt like I was at sail in the middle of the open seas whilst having lunch @ the 14th floor pantry. I managed to take at least 1 bite from my lunch before we were forced to leave.
Our General Manager advised us all to vacate the building until we’ve gotten a green light from the Building administration. It was a bit of a mayhem having to go down to the ground level from the 14th floor. Funny though because I wasn’t exhausted from the traverse. I was thinking that the exercises has made me stronger and endure longer. I’d call that a YAY moment.
From there, we had our business meeting with a prospect client. A Londoner by all means and must I say he is quite a sight for sore eyes. I was looking at him whilst he explained his business and all that. HE is an intelligent man with the typical knack for dry British humour. In other words, he is a magnet.
Moving on, today Thursday, the rain poured mad out of the sky. Traffic felt like a cross country ride taking forever to reach. To cap it off, another hotel mutiny took place done by the same bunch of people. The guy’s got taste. In 2003, he chose Oakwood hotel now known as Ascott. This year it was Manila Peninsula. Goodness! I foresee Manila Pen to change its glamorous name to something else to prevent bad media publicity.
Goodness. This is indeed a hefty week of fortuitous and natural calamity. At the end of it all, Human spirit prevails because of the Will to live, with the blessing of the Man upstairs.
I can’t wait for the week to end. I need to finish my shopping and have a soothing massage to drive away all of the searing toxins in my body brought about by stress.
***** ***** ***** ***** Music: The Music’s No Good Without You Artist: Cher
Come up to meet you tell you I'm sorry You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you Tell you I need you Tell you I've set you apart
Tell me your secrets And ask me your questions oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles Comet tales Heads on the science apart
Nobody said it was easy Oh it's such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be this hard Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing The numbers and figures Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science Science and progress Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me Come back and haunt me Oh, when I rush to the start
Running in circles Chasing our tails Comin' back as we are
Nobody said it was easy Oh, it's such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be so hard I’m going back to the start...
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping on words You've got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now I can't quite figure out Everything she does is beautiful Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive
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This is all of that what I'm feeling. I can only enjoy the moments of being with you. Whenever you are by my side, life would be much more complete.
I know that I have to stop at some point because you belong to someone.
I feel stress at work, stress at home and stress at all possible angles. Going to the gym has helped me carry through all of these trying times. Praying everyday has kept me on solid ground inspite of all the frustrations. Having a wonderful family and great friends lightens the burden. I have every reason to be grateful and thankful. For all the whining, it stops there because I know that at the end of the day, I am way blessed than most people will ever be in their lives. But for now, I will use this post to just bare what I feel.
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Lately, I've been feeling lonely. I know that I shouldn't be even whilst I'm in the company of my family and friends. I've been getting smiles from time to time from other guys. I return the favour and be friendly with them. However, sometimes I'm just to damn dumb to read and understand the signs, like if they're interested at me or something.
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It is strange that whenever you're around me, I feel like we have a connection. Its just sad that you're already involved with someone. Well, I'll stick around as a friend. That's how I'm often seen. I'll be here if ever you feel the same way about me.
How ugly can things get? VERY UGLY. Today, I had the burden deliberating on the legal courses of action to take vs. one of our agents. Has it become a cycle so vicious that this cases follow me on to my next job?
Even worse, I had to disclose to agents of my team that they were not selected by the client to be part of the conversion program.
It pains me to give out such heartbreaking news, but it is part of my job. I pray to God that when I meet with the people tomorrow, they'd keep an open mind and heart to listen with what I have to say.
I'm tired. I'll be sleeping now. I can't wait to get my massage this coming Saturday.
I know days like this happen for a reason. I hope things get better.
***** ***** ***** ***** Music: Last Goodbye Artist: Jeff Buckley
I managed to take an offset last Friday since I worked last Oct 29th. I'll be taking two more offsets, but I'll use them toward the end of the month. I'm looking to watch a Regine Velasquez concert with mum.
I was supposed to meet up with an internet buddy, but he had to back out because of fund shortage. Anyway, it was fine as I got to spend time with myself. I saw the movie Butterfly On A Wheel and felt so weird with the movie. The premise was quite twisted just to show to her husband each and every single pain she felt when he neglected her. In the end, she got what she wanted.
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I just had dinner with Don. I have to admit I was excited to have seen him again and spend solo time with him. I did have a crush on him, however that's all there is to it. He's commited to Scott, his partner. As I bid him farewell, I find eagerness knowing that I will see him again in Feb.
I envy him as they're living together in an almost perfect relationship. He admitted that there are instances of differences, but its all about love at the end of the day.
I know my time for love hasn't come yet. My time will come. Someday...
***** ***** ***** ***** Music: I Could Fall In Love Artist: Selena Album: Dreaming Of You
This week started off with the sky falling down on us. My good friend Thina called me up and was grief stricken about her sister’s ailing condition. Ate Marites celebrated her birthday last Nov 1, and sadly, it was her last celebration at life. Sunday evening, she was brought to the ICU and was in comatose Monrday morning. In the evening, I checked my mobile phone after working out. Thina miss called me. When I checked my other mobile, I got a message from my boss that Ate Tes had passed away. I checked on Thina and she sounded really tired. I told her that I prayed for the Lord to give what was best for her.
Finally, her struggle and pain was over. Somehow, I couldn’t cry because I know that she’s in a much better state. This event made me recall on what happened with Dad’s passing almost 3 years ago. That same night, it scared me that I can never tell who goes and when my time will come. The possibility of me not waking up to see the next day can happen. All I can do is live my life to the fullest and make sure to express my love to my beloved ones.
Life is definitely uncertain. For all its predictability, sudden twists and turns just pop up and levels everything.
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Life is definitely uncertain. For all its predictability, sudden twists and turns just pop up and levels everything.
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There’s this white guy @ the gym. He winked at me on his way out of the locker room. Same thing happened last night. Does this mean he’s interested? I honestly don’t know.
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