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Thursday, March 27, 2008
How Do I...How do I get through this?I'm torn between staying and moving on. Staying would mean a lot of convinience, but not much of a future. Moving on would mean a hell of a trouble, but presents a way better opportunity.Scenario is, I can't just leave because I'm being held back by plenty of technicalities.I'm thankful to friends and family that have been very helpful to me in making the best possible decision for my problem. Indeed that this is a good way to test my ability to negotiate.I've always believed that if something was meant for me, it would wait. If this chance waits, then this is another chance.***** ***** ***** *****Music: RunArtist: Snow Patrol Run ~ Snow Patrol
Video sent by Cehcw Run MV by Snow Patrol
 
Friday, March 21, 2008
Semana SantaIts amazing how people switch to vacation mode once Semana Santa ushers in.You'd also notice how the weather turns from slightly cool to scorching hot.Alas, summer is really here. People have begun to do their regular out of town exiles to savour the sun, sand and sea. Others choose to go to slightly cooler places like the North and Tagaytay.For me, Boracay is my destination this summer. Aileen and I will be going there to bask in the sun and watch the Nestea Beach volley tournament. Its sad that the usual summer gang won't be around as they've been given a leave block for the whole month of April and May. Definitely, this summer will be more intimate. Its the first time that I'm going there as an employee of a different company. We'll see how it goes.***** ***** ***** *****As part of my summer program, I will be making changes with my hair. I will have it cut shorter tomorrow as I've grown weary of maintaining its length. Then a week after, I will have it treated to have a much better look. I'm unsure if that would help improve my image, but I hope it would.***** ***** ***** *****I've been improving my relationship with my gym buddies lately. I've noticed that a certain warmth was starting to show from them. I guess they've begun to see me as someone worth their time. Good things come to those who wait.***** ***** ***** *****Music: Back To YouArtist: John Mayer
Saturday, March 15, 2008
My Other FamilyHaving left my Adobe family, I've been reintroduced to new people.These are the people at my new workplace, the clients and most of all my favourite gym buddies. It feels so good that my network of friends has grown so much that there's always a reason to be open.These guys are both straight and gay/les and yet I feel close to them in another perspective. Perhaps we all have something common in our lives. That common factor is something that I've yet to find out about.In the meantime, I'm loving every minute of the time I spend with these guys. It would be a blast to get to know them better.***** ***** ***** *****Yesterday was Jerry's birthday dinner at NorthPark Convergys. I was new to the group and I can say that I was fashionably late. It was nice to know that I was embraced by the gang with open arms.I'd say that our conversation was pretty much lively and sensible. Not as profound as my talks with the inner circle though. Nevertheless, it was a lovely evening of laughter and random conversations.Come to think of it, it was only pretty recent that I've come to know Jerry better. He, along with everyone else has been quite kind enough to include me in their circle. I know that it will take time for me to know them personally. Thankfully, Beth, Carol and Ramil have been very open with me. In turn, I've been very open to them as well. No pretentions. As always, there are some rifts, but I don't get caught in between. I'm known to take sides, MY SIDE that is.Sooooooooooooo much for the segue, dinner was fun. I wasn't in the mood to eat as I indulged myself @ Italianni's buffet. I'm never doing buffet again as it felt like food was almost coming out of my ears.After dinner, we moved on to have some tea at CBTL Convergys. We were waiting until a little part midnight so that we could be the first ones to greet Jerry a Happy Birthday. Arvin, Lyn, Jon, Ramil, Rachel and I were the last ones left. When midnight struck, we timidly sung Jerry the Happy Birthday song. We hung out a little more and decided to call it a night.Arvin was kind enough to let me hitch a ride with him. I wasn't able to thank him well for that. So, Thanks anyway! I'll see you on your next Body Pump class. :)***** ***** ***** *****Music: SurrenderArtist: Laura Pausini***** ***** ***** ***** Lara Fabian & Laura Pausini La Solitudine
Video sent by myonlylover11 Lara Fabian & Laura Pausini La Solitudine
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
The Sweetest Thing
Last Saturday, I was invited to James’ surprise birthday party.
It was an eventful evening as I got to hang out with a different group of people this time around. They were my gym buddies and more. The inner circle is far from being threatened. It’s just that I also have to meet new people who are of the same sexual orientation as I am. There are things that one can do when you’re with people of the same kind. A kind of uninhibited fun and conversations that connects each of us, that’s something unfathomable for most straight people.
I’m glad that I’m exposing myself more. Somehow, I’m getting more comfortable in randomly meeting with people. ***** ***** ***** *****Hot In The City
So, I had this really hot and sensual dream last night.
Among my former BFs, one stood out in terms of sincerity and gentleness. He treated me with so much respect as if I was the queen in his life. However, things didn’t end right between us. There was no closure and everything nice was shattered into pieces.
Aaaaaaaaaaanyway, last night I dreamt that we were @ Boracay and it was a very hot night. We decided to take a quick dip at the beach. Then we went back to our room, and the endless passion…kisses and sex. FUCKING HOT SEX.
When I woke up this morning, I felt sad because I miss him so much.
I talked to Beth about the whole thing and she told me that I should move on. I know that she’s right and that I need to go out more. That would be a TO DO item for this year.***** ***** ***** *****Music: Open Your Heart
Artist: Madonna Madonna - Open Your Heart
Video sent by jpdc11
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
MemoriesLately, I've been remembering my brief 15 minutes of fame during the Sykes Global Picnic in Subic in 2005. I was the lead vocalist of the band Nene and the Virgins for the rock band competition. Our line up were Drive by Incubus, Ironic by Alanis M and the show stopper was Crazy For You by Madonna.To be honest, I never had such a great time singing my heart out in front of almost a thousand people appreciating Madonna's song.From a personal standpoint, this song is something I completely relate to as I have difficulty saying to my crushes how crazy I am for them.So to cap it all off, below is the lyrics and the video of Crazy For You by Madonna.***** ***** ***** *****Music: Crazy For YouArtist: MadonnaAlbum: Soundtrack from the movie Vision QuestSwaying room as the music startsStrangers making the most of the darkTwo by two their bodies become oneI see you through the smokey airCan't you feel the weight of my stareYou're so close but still a world awayWhat I'm dying to say, is thatChorus:I'm crazy for youTouch me once and you'll know it's trueI never wanted anyone like thisIt's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kissI'm crazy for you, crazy for youTrying hard to control my heartI walk over to where you areEye to eye we need no words at allSlowly now we begin to moveEvery breath I'm deeper into youSoon we two are standing still in timeIf you read my mind, you'll seeChorusI'm crazy for youTouch me once and you'll know it's trueI never wanted anyone like thisIt's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kissYou'll feel it in my kiss becauseI'm crazy for youTouch me once and you'll know it's trueI never wanted anyone like thisIts all brand new, you'll feel it in my kissI'm crazy for you, crazy for youCrazy for youCrazy for you Madonna - Crazy For You
Video sent by jpdc11
Sunday, March 02, 2008
A Full WeekendThe weekend started early with Friday being another rally day for those who wanted the incumbent to step down.Our manager was kind enough to allow us to go home early in anticipation of the messy and chaotic traffic the melée would cause.From another point of view, it was the perfect opportunity for us to head out of the city and go to MoA where Thina's birthday party would be held. To add to that, I had to make sure that I work out doubly hard as I would be indulging that night.Many thanks to Joyce for her tenacity to take us there. Whilst waiting for the party to happen, she took the time to scour MoA for baby stuff. I on the other hand, went to the gym and started to engross myself in my quest for endorphine (sp?). Luckily, the class that night was Body Pump challenge. It was 1.5 hours of pure weight training. At first, I was adamant if I could finish it. I just told myself to do the best I could. To my surprise, I made it to the very end. And YES! I managed to do the lunges and abdominals too! It was well worth it.***** ***** ***** *****I was actually late for the party. I managed to chat with a couple of old time buddies at FF MoA. 'twas a rare chance to see them so I took it. By the time I got to the party, I was the only one missing. It was a major dramatic entrance. Nevertheless, I mingled with everyone as if it were my party. I'm so glad to have been a part of Thina's life. She's more of a sister to me than a friend. Ivy was there. Niña and Lelly was there along with Andrew. Rich and Chris was there too. It was a great time to reconnect with people.***** ***** ***** *****I had quite a number of beer because I couldn't recall the number I've had. It was all good as I hardly drink. It was funny because I knew I was already light-headed and started to dance and my wildside was gradually coming out.Good thing that the party ended before I fully released. We ended the evening with tea @ CBTL MoA. Afterwards, we went home.***** ***** ***** *****Saturday, I worked out at FF Manila. Was a bit late for Pump, but still managed to finish the class until Jam.Surprisingly, Beth was around. It was nice because we got to hang out a little and then head off to Makati. I loved it because Beth is one of the more sensible people I've ever met in my life. She doesn't judge me and sees me on ways other people don't.I got to hang out with Shawn and his friends at Café Havana. Carol and her husband was there as well. Yasmin of course was the miss laughter of the night. She just brings that cheery moment to everyone with her very infectious laugh.If I weren't tired, I would've stayed on. However, I was just too spent.Still, it was a night that I loved.***** ***** ***** *****Today, I saw the film Daybreak. There was much rave about the movie being this and that. To my dismay, it didn't live up to my expectation. In a nutshell, it was 90 minutes to breakup. Good thing that the lead actors were good looking. At least it wasa feast for the eyes.***** ***** ***** *****Music: Why Does It Always Rain On MeArtist: TravisI can't sleep tonightEverybody saying everything's alrightStill I can't close my eyesI'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lightsSunny daysWhere have you gone?I get the strangest feeling you belongWhy does it always rain on me?Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?Why does it always rain on me?Even when the sun is shiningI can't avoid the lightningI can't stand myselfI'm being held up by an invisible manStill life on a shelf whenI got my mind on something elseSunny daysWhere have you gone?I get the strangest feeling you belongWhy does it always rain on me?Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?Why does it always rain on me?Even when the sun is shiningI can't avoid the lightningOh, where did the blue skies go?And why is it raining so?It's so cold I can't sleep tonightEverybody's saying everything's all rightStill I can't close my eyesI'm seeing a tunnel at the end of the lightsSunny daysWhere have you gone?I get the strangest feeling you belongWhy does it always rain on me?Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?Even when the sun is shiningI can't avoid the lightningOh, where did the blue skies go?And why is it raining so?It's so coldWhy does it always rain on me?Why does it always rain on....
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